i'm so unlovable.
my bestfriend never compliments me. it feels like she only insults me. she keeps on calling me flat and it really makes me sad because i've trusted her to see my body so much and i have only been intimate with her only for her to just insult my appearance and i feel so repulsive. if she can't love me, who can?
she can be so mean about my appearance and then she rests her head on my chest so i feel like nobody else will ever want to touch me because i am ugly and disgusting. and to make it worse, she is everything i am not. she is pretty and smart with a good body. and i am disgusting. i feel so pathetic because she's just so much better than me and without her i am nothing. will anyone ever love me?
she doesn't even love me. god, i really am stupid.
she never touches me or compliments me, it's like i don't deserve it. i do not deserve to be loved. because i am UGLY.
UGLY. FAT. FLAT.
life is so unfair.
she wouldn't even care if i was gone, that is how little i matter.
i've been working out alot recently, i'll continue to do so. maybe i'll be loved then.
signed with fairy dust and a wish,
- eloise
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