˗ˋˏ entry #05 ⋆˚⟡˖

 right so shortly after my previous entry, my mum attempted to make me blonde with box dye. BIG MISTAKE.

IT MADE ME GINGER!!! LITERALLY GINGER. LIKE MY HAIR WAS BRIGHT ORANGE. 

so obviously i refused to go into school because that is social suicide and i looked ugly and my looks are everything to me so absolutely not.

i went to see a hair stylist to see if she can fix it and make me blonde again. for reference, before i dyed my hair pink i was golden blonde. she bleached and toned my hair and now it's ALMOST WHITE. 

it's not even bad, i'm just not used to it. it's cool. it is permanent though so goodbye forever my golden blonde hair!! 

she said i looked like taylor swift, two hairstylists has said that about me but i don't really see it. i appreciate the compliment though.

it's the weekend now, yaay!! no idea what i'm gonna do though, i don't know if jess can hang out with me. i hope she can because i literally HATE everyone else. like seriously i want everyone to die. 

so the first two days of year 10 was TERRIBLE. and i'm feeling extremely lonely and ugly and fat. ughh. 

i'm gonna try to walk more often. which will be a challenge because i'm extremely unfit. 

I AM BOREDD!!!!!!!!!

i feel disliked, gross, alone, fat and stupid and i hate everyone. 

anyways i'm gonna try to relax now. 

signed with fairy dust and a wish 

- eloise