˗ˋˏ entry #11 ⋆˚⟡˖

 I AM SO FAT AND DISGUSTING!!!!!!!!

i've been slacking on blogging, sorry!

alvin and leah are going through a rough patch so i'm thinking of being evil and pouncing on her when she's most vulnerable....muahahah!!!

apparently leah is the least favourite in their group because she's a HUGE shit talker. but so am i. and i've been in her position before. ughh i feel soo bad!! 

alvin has been talking to me in school recently, yaay!!!

alvin told me that izzie is EVIL. guys i thought she was nice. and izzie has a crush on MILAN (brooke's boyfriend) when brooke found out about it she was PISSED. she literally said these exact words "THAT FAT CUNT LIKES MY BOYFRIEND!!" but brooke.. YOU DON'T EVEN LIKE YOUR BOYFRIEND. like that day she was going to literally break up with him but when she heard about that she decided to stay with him out of spite.

izzie hasn't been in for some reason, i feel like when she comes in brooke will go mental. 

i am fat and ugly and i am disgusting. MY MOUTH IS SO GROSS, MY TEETH ARE YELLOW!!!!! i have been trying to eat less by skipping breakfast so when i get home i stuff my face like a pig. i have picture day in TWO DAYS. i am so bad at makeup too. 

my birthday is soon!!! like five days!!!!!! then i'll be FIFTEEN!! fifteen years old, wow. five years away from 10 and five years away from 20. crazy.

i just wish i was inlove. like i wished someone was deeply inlove with me. i am SO lonely. 

like sure me and my bestfriend do stuff but it's all just casual stuff and i want something REAL. i am so alone and i am UGLY. UGH. literally all i need to do is loose face fat and i'll be okay. i might get a walking pad for my birthday, which is good because i need exercise.

i might sleep now, even if it's only 8:30pm, waking up everyday at 6am has drained me.

goodnight!!!

signed with fairy dust and a wish, 

- eloise